Despite the things that have gone wrong over the past six months, something has become very clear to me - I've lost my focus. I've been so worried about the different challenges I've faced that I've taken my eyes away from God. Instead of prayer being my first port of call, it's often been the last as I've prioritised doctors' appointments, phone calls and other things that I assume will 'fix' the problem. Being the new person, it's very easy to try and make fitting in your priority. There's nothing wrong with taking action, but my first action should have been to kneel before my Heavenly Father.
This song is my prayer that I will see things through God's eyes and make Him my vision.
Be Thou my vision, o Lord of my heart;
Naught be all else to me, save that Thou art.
Thou my best thought, by day or by night,
Waking or sleeping, Thy presence my light.
Be Thou my wisdom, thou my true word;
I ever with Thee, Thou with me, Lord;
Thou my great Father; I thy true son;
Thou in me dwelling, and I with thee one.
Be Thou my battle shield, sword for my fight,
Be Thou my dignity, Thou my delight.
Thou my soul's shelter, Thou my high tower.
Raise Thou me heavenward, O Power of my power.
Riches I heed not, nor man's empty praise,
Thou mine inheritance, now and always;
Thou and thou only, first in my heart,
High King of heaven, my treasure Thou art.
High King of heaven, my victory won,
May I reach heaven's joys, O bright heav'n's Son!
Heart of my own heart, whatever befall,
Still be my vision, O ruler of all.